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23rd July 2016

6:24pm: A moody morning but a nice afternoon.
Today is my day off and have i enjoyed it? Yes, I can say i have. Was I enjoying it this morning? ah kind of-somewhat-not really. I was in one of "my moods" where I feel let down by my self and by the world. Meaning i hold a pity party, saying i do not have many friends to hang out with anymore, i have an awful job. stuff like that. not liking where i live and wanting to get out and move. feeling trapped more like it. And we (my mom and i were out for a longtime and i get burned out fast by going to yd sales. Moving on.....

Yd sales began with sun showers in the morning. Nothing too great but I found a NY GIANTS Coat for $35...just checked online retail its $140.
Went to a few others. I did not find anything but my mom found some things. Way after 10am we went to the store and picked up some food, found some goodies. Then we went to the pound to check out the adopt pets weekend. There were some cute dogs there and they were all happy to see us. But none of them picked us. So we came home...its now around 2pm. I watched SUPER 8. Wanted to watch that film for awhile. A nice film to escape life by and remember the times of the 80s...later tonight i am going to grab some pizza and bring it over to someones house as a surprise. I can't seem to spend money on my self aka nothing i truly want to can't live without so do something nice for someone else. Since we got home Bono and shelly have not left my side. they have wanted to be near me every second. cute. i love them so much. my best friends!

22nd July 2016

7:26am: I think the last time i wrote here was during the 4th of july week. not much to catch up on all i have done is work most nights. i do not DO ANYTHING anymore which is sad. What i mean by DO is GO ANYWHERE. No place to really go to and do something. other then going YD Sales on saturday. I just stay at home because theres nothing to do. Sad. i did go see GHOSTBUSTERS. Alight film. it was not needed. Trying to enjoy star trek again and get into that mode for the new film. Which is kind of tough. I was thinking about GOING TO (yes me doing something!) to a star trek convention in NYC in Sept. But it would take (hotel, air fair, ticket(s) to convention) almost $1500 just to walk in the door. I just do not think its worth it and i am more of a casual fan then anything, not a hardcore fan. I am enjoying what i have and try not to spend any money that i do not need to spend because there is nothing i really NEED out there its more WANTS. I just finished playing the GHOSTBUSTERS game for PS3 and it was an alright game. Took awhile to get thru it (a week) but to me that was THE TRUE GHOSTBUSTERS 3. And at the end of the game They talk about having a FRANCHISE so maybe GHOST 16 can mold into that. I just wanted to give an update. I sure do wish i could have a better job somewhere and DO things.

7th July 2016

7:06pm: an end of a nice 4 days off mini vacation
Granted i was (still am) a little sick during the entire time. i think that had to deal with the stress of the holiday and even the stress i get from work. but in all this was a super break.

monday the 4th of july i relaxed in the pool as you know

tuesday the 5th i just enjoyed my time home

wednesday the 6th i was starting to feel kind of super sick and bono stayed with me all day and we watched Jaws 2 and Jaws 3

thursday the 7th my mom and i went out to wilmington to do some shopping at Costco bought a lot of healthy things. went to target. wanted to buy something but i did not find anything that i really liked. and if you go to yd sales you learn to not pay full price for things anymore. and tonight were going to watch a movie. then back to the grind in the morning depending how well i feel.

5th July 2016

3:01pm: a nice break
After work on the 3rd i went to a cookout to visit my good old high school friends - Danny, Si, Justin and Chris. Everyone has wives and have kids. it was so nice to spend time with everyone.

So yesterday was the 4th and i was off. it was a very nice day. it did not even feel like a big holiday. my mom slept late. later on during the afternoon i went down to the town to see what was going on. it was semi packed but not really. met up with jeff and his mom and their family. walked around for awhile. mindless chitchat. then i found my exit.

When i got home i had fun, i jumped into my suite and into the pool and sat outside in the heat with the hose on. Later on i cooked us (mom and i) dinner burgers and hotdogs.
At this point i was not feeling well. my body was just super tired and even semi sick.
So i took bono upstairs to take care of him before and during the fireworks. i then slipped into a coma for the night...

Today, my second day off has been nice,. woke up had some good breakfast. gave bono a walk. had lunch later on watching a disney cartoon. haha. then around noonish i went to finish my movie trilogy of the Before Trilogy - Before Sunrise, Before Sunset and Before Sunrise. A Very good trilogy. its almost like pen pal letters.

27th June 2016

7:43am: Finding a Double Feature
During the week I watched a double feature
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And looking both films as a whole they are great! I loved the first one because it was just so beautiful and 13 years later it still feels fresh and new! The second film was such another beautiful film. I liked the film had many charters with disability's
such as short term memory, vision problems, a crazy bird and more. I also liked how the beginning of the film starts before NEMO begins then you see Dory for the first time in the first film leading up to a year later. Would be cool to edit both films together seamless.

on Saturday went yd sailing and found some movies for $1. Then just a relaxing boring summer day. Yesterday i had to work but when i came home i grilled up some hot dogs and watched another film a dark film called Curse from 1980. Today is a new day.

19th June 2016

6:06am: trying to find dory but tickets all sold out
Tried to go see Finding Dory yesterday but it was sold out. Came home and watched something on tv, relaxed. had an ice pop. put my feet in the pool while my mom took a nap. had some pizza for dinner. spending time with the dogs and cat. i think shelly really enjoyed spending time with me. she kept on putting her head on me and snuggling. so sweet. later went up stairs and watched a bugs life and went to bed

13th June 2016

11:55am: Before I start to write about my weekend it was an awful weekend in Orlando Florida. 2 shootings. one was at a concert and one of the winners of the voice was killed. The second was as a club. 50 dead (49 if you do not count the killer) and 53 hurt. Its so sad what this world has become. so much gun violence. Seems like its every 6 months. Last year 2 events in Paris, The first was in January and the second was last November. Some new violent act(s) each year. So sad. I wish everyone could get along without violence. (even using words as violence) It solves nothing. it only gives people pain and sadness. I wish this world could be a happy place. I see on the news people gathering across NY and other states and places to honor the victims. Many people gather in Stone Wall in The West Village. I went to that bar a lot during the day when i lived there, i could care less if it was a gay bar, it had good people to talk to in it. It was 4 doors down from my apt. I visit there anytime I go to NY and get a coke. I just wish everyone could get along and have no hate in this world and only love. In the words of the Beatles All You Need is Love and Give Peace A Chance!

Okay onto the weekend well my day off. Saturday i was in so much pain i am sure its because of the amount of work i do at work daily. its starting to take a tole on my body. So my mom and I went to go see
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Lots of good jump scares! The film was scary. It was as good as the first one. It really has no relation to the first one other then the 2 main charters. The sound was great and the music was great also! This is a must see!

I spoke to my friend from high school the other day and he is doing well. he quit his job and got one the same day. Wow! He is much more happy and stress free. making less money but happy. Its nice to know that other people my age are going thru the same thing as i am right now (dealing with my job) and trying to balancing out being happy and doing things that make you happy.

8th June 2016

12:12pm: Life after my trip has been well kind of boring. back to the same old things day in and day out. but my guess thats most eoples lives after a week in disney world. its now june and we have gotten more cable then ever before! so many channels. and its so much money a month its crazy! I also picked up some apple airport routers for the house so the internet can be fast. work is work. i hate it. but i guess lucky to have a job. never get to see my friends anymore. even talking to people over the phone is kind of starting to fade. but i am healthy and have a home and a job and a wonderful mom.

what other things are going on not much really. i saw the jungle book a few weeks ago and it was a great film.

16th May 2016

10:23am: My Disney Trip 2016
My trip to Walt Disney World May 3-10 (With Some Photos)
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26th April 2016

7:55am: WOW! Long time!
I have lots to share. First music. Early this month I had ordered the Star Wars Record set (soundtracks to all 6 films) And my mom picked me up the Force Awakens Soundtrack on Record (Picture Discs) I had gotten a good deal on the box set 50% off...they were going for over $200 but I got the set for $93...i once again say i work hard for my money and i have to treat my self every now and then.

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28th March 2016

11:05am: Happy Easter!
So Saturday morning mum and I went yd sales. nothing great this week. So I bought us some breakfast and later on mum and i went back to the park so she could look around. nothing much she was not impressed. So went back home i started to watch a movie and fell asleep in the chair and then an hour or so later i woke up and mom was taking a nap for a few hours. Sunday Morning came around HAPPY EASTER!!! It was kind of rainy all day. But the feeling of a new day with Jesus in it was upon us. So everyone got an easter basket,

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and the pets got one.
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Later on we (like many other people) went to go see
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The Question did i like it? Thinking about it I have to say Yes I did. Was the movie dark yes it was. I had to think about it for almost 24 hours and I have to say it was a very good adult comic book film. Its not for kids at all. This is an adult superman and an adult batman. Did Ben do a good job as Batman? I thought he did well. It was dark and it had a lot of action in it. I do not want to say too much about it but I give the film 2.5 stars. Is it a film I would like to revisit again anytime soon? No not for a long time. But i did read that a few theater chains have this 4D Technology and its almost like a ride would i revisit the film like that? I would.

26th March 2016

2:20pm: Easter Break
I started my Easter Break yesterday afternoon. Went down to the park for awhile to see what it was all about. Arts and Crafts mostly. Had some dinner later on while spending time with mom and watched the rest of an Easter movie and went to bed. Today I woke up with an awful headache but we went out to hit a few yd sales. nothing there for me today just a lot of junk. came home and yes i put my PJs on and i took a nap in the chair! So far a nice relaxing lazy break!

19th March 2016

6:15pm: This saturday has been a nice one. I worked yesterday till 4 then had a nice evening off. Went to bed. Today we went out for yd sales but found nothing so instead I went to the movies to go see

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I have wanted to see this film for 2 weeks so far. I thought it was a good movie. Its more of Disney Grownup film. There were many kids and no one really laughed. It was more aimed for adults. So much they tackled, race, drug use, stereotypes, how life is not always fun, how the real world is. Its the issues thats going on today. Would i take kids to see this movie, I guess i would but not my first choice. But still a good disney film. Well Done Disney for a nice adult themed movie!

Had a nice after dinner walk with Bono and enjoying the day off.

15th March 2016

3:52pm: So I feel a lot has happened over the last 2 weeks or so. Working a lot, got a raise at work up to $10 an hour. I also with work (i want to bring this up first i am not settling down at work meaning i know that this will not be my job forever) I thought about it and today I opened up my 401k. I know that I am almost 2 yrs 2 late to start but I have to look out for me, my life in the future. I just want to start preparing now for later on in my life. Okay done with the work stuff! We had a yard sale over the weekend and that was a lot of work to set up. But we made over $400 from it in only a few hours.

I got some goodies in the mail last week that I had ordered from amazon I bought a collection of SUSPENSE Radio shows and a collection of DRAGNET radio shows. 120 shows total for under $22..one day I will post all my photos.

Tomorrow we are going on a day cation down to Myrtle Beach for the day. Looking forward to it because its spring and we both need a break to have some fun!
Hope to report some fun stories on the trip later!

1st March 2016

5:56pm: March for ya
Have not updated last last month! The month of February it went fast! Nothing new at all with my job search (or endless job search) nothing really new with working...I did end up getting some upcoming dates off. February was the month of Valentines Day. If you know in the past I was always upset that day because I was always single. Well I told my self its going to be different. Try to give out love that day (i had to work anyways) to everyone that you meet. I did that. I even had lunch with my mom, my treat! I bought her some flowers and some heart cakes. She gave me a tv show on dvd and a big yoda that says "yoda one for me" it took me 3 days to understand that! Haha! I could go on with a few more details about work but i think that i will pass. nothing bad i just do not want to talk about my job almost every journal. oh yeah so turns out that i have used some of my money from my BB8 i used it for an iTunes card and an amazon card. do not want to use my credit card because of lack of money i am making and one less bill to pay. so i have some items in my cart. wondering what is worth getting. i am also trying to really enjoy what i already own. whats old is new again type of thing. hope this is a good month!

17th February 2016

11:26am: Middle of February 2016
This month's new years goal is to learn something new so I enrolled in an online free class called Film and Philphiophy and it runs for 6 weeks.

First week is Introduction and "Inception" -The Experience Machine and Free Will
Second week is "The Birds" - Psychology and Desire
Third week is "Match Point" -Ethical Subjectivism
Forth Week is "District 9" -People aren't Objects: The Categorical Imperative
Fifth Week is "The Hunger Games" -Exploitation and Alienation
Sixth Week is Conclusion and "Groundhog Day" -Happiness

We are on week 2. I feel like I have learned a lot in the short time i have taken the class. I am really enjoying it! Like that its free!

The job hunt is kind of slow. I applied to a few jobs, some really big jobs also such as Trailer Editor with Disney. So I shall see. Work is kind of slow, its something. I am trying not to let that job bother me much anymore and not to put all my energy into thinking about the job i currently have. Its not right nor healthy.

I have looked into taking a trip somewhere but not sure where I want to go. Just to have something in mind would be great, something to look forward to. But then I do know that you do not have to spend $$$$$$ to have something to look forward to.

6th February 2016

6:06pm: The Choice
Went to see

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It was an alright movie. It was filmed here in 2014. They made NC look nice, but kind of unreal because everyone was drinking every weekend, sail the own boats, have parties (cook outs) every single weekend. Drive unnamed old looking trucks. Yeah thats what NC really looks like. No not really. I really went to go support my friends who worked on the film. it was a good time waster film.

3rd February 2016

10:45am: Wow! One Month and a Day Later!
So much to speak about in the timespan of a month. So I'll try to give the highlights out.

It was a month of change for me. To get rid of items i did not want anymore. Work gave many people lots of time off for the month so i had lots of time on my hands so I did some projects. Such as got thru my closet and label ever bin, clean up the closet. Get rid of clothes I did not want anymore or did not fit me. For winter and summer. I even spent a day rearranging my room. So my room looks super amazing now. I even unhooked my TV because i was not using it anymore. I only use my projector now. My room is now a stress free place to be.

On the DVD front I picked up (as a birthday gift) the final box set of the hobbit film. I spent many days viewing those films and going into LOTR extended cuts (still have the final film to go) I also picked up (as another birthday gift) the final volume of the Young Indiana Jones series. And for many days i watched the final films then going into the feature films. I have to say I really liked the full on Indiana Jones experience! So much to learn and so much history! And now i am going thru the history channel shows of each Young Indiana Jones film. Lots of watch! I also picked up on digital "Exodus Gods and Kings" Have not watched that yet. I also used the rest of my iTunes card to get HBO Now for the month. They had a 7 hour cut of The Godfather and the U2 concert from December so I thought it was well worth it.

Looking for work is still an on going process, but i understand it will be a slow process. Nothing happens over night. So during this month i had a friend of mine to remake my resume once again into more of a professional resume. And looking for other work thru other web sites which as now seems like spam sites. Not sure. But as I have said before, I have looked since Jan of 2013 and its now Feb 2016 (4 yrs) of looking for work after awhile you just forget what you really would like to do and just apply to anything just to get out of where you are now. As I have said its going to take time. Just like asking a girl out- it only takes one.

I also created some goals new the new year. Most are the same as last year that were not fulfilled. Those goals would be
-Star Wars in Concert
-Travel to NY or Other Place
-See Dad
-See Jason
-Get a New/Better job
-Learn to be happy with who you are inside and out no matter what you do
-Try to not to spend a lot on physical media (since you do not have the room)
-Try not to worry about what you do not have in your life but to enjoy what you have in your life

Doug would like me to join them on a cruse last this year. He told me i should start to save a little bit each month depending on the price...But also would like to do the TSO concert again since last year he missed out on it. So Money wise i will have to see if i could do any of that.

Ending last month was kind of sad because my friend Corey past away. He was working on a roof and fell thru it. The day i thought of him was the day he past. Over the weekend family and friends gathered to honor his life. It was nice to see old friends and to share some stories. Sad. Not a dry eye in the house. i hung out with my old friends for awhile till I thought it was time to go because we all deal with loss in our own ways. And I could not be around my friends for too long. So lots of laughs, hugs, stories were shared.

It is a new month, February 2016 so lets hope its a good one!

2nd January 2016

4:50pm: Happy 2015! Happy New 35th Year!
Today is my Birthday! I woke up early and went down stairs and had a nice breakfast then my mom gave me some gifts

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As you can see a running theme this year....

First off is the Chewy PJs.

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Second is the new Force Awakens poster (I got it free via disney movie rewards)
Third Tickets to see Star Wars in IMAX later in the morning.
Forth Back To The Future Picture Vinyl
Fifth An Original Picture Disc Vinyl of The Story of Star Wars
Sixth An Indiana Jones Birthday Card

We arrived at the Imax theater around 950. Got some good seats and enjoyed

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It was so great to see it in IMAX! Totally different experience. It was seeing the film for the first time! Enjoyed it and really bought you back into the film. The scene that was shot with IMAX cameras was so cool and it stood out! We both enjoyed the film very much!!! The music was amazing, the story was good, the SOUND -the SOUND!

Next up was lunch!! We went to Brixx Pizza, I had Korean Meatballs
house made meatballs sauteed in Korean BBQ sauce with fresh pineapple, green onions, sesame seeds & sriracha and some Breadsticks. My mom had some pasta. It was a yummy birthday lunch! After lunch we walked around to walk the food off. Then we went back home. Later on I had a birthday dinner with my friend Doug. It was nice to catch up with him and we talked about lots of stuff-plans for the new yr, jobs and stuff.
During the day I got many happy birthday wishes from friends via Facebook. So this birthday was a great one. Lets hope that the new year will also be great!!

1st December 2015

2:55pm: Highlights of Disney World Trip Nov 15-Nov 20
Sunday November 15th - Travel Day to Disney. Got to All Star Movies in the afternoon and unpacked and did our own things. I went to downtown disney for the a few hours. in downtown disney i went to the earl of sandwich and picked up some dinner, an earl club. mmm. yummy! After that, I walked around first up in the Disney Toy store and looked at the star wars stuff and looked around. After, I went to get a chocolate shake and walked around. Took the bus back to the hotel and took a shower and went to bed.

Monday November 16 Universal Studios. Super happy! I could feel it on my face. We were only going to the first park and that took the entire day! Got there around 10am and got some extra breakfast to tide us over. Did the Despicable Me ride. So fun and funny! Then we watched the Spongebob fish skate around. took some videos and photos of the fish. After we went to Terminator 2...the pre show was fun like always (But if you think about what Cyberdime wanted to do, it is already happening now!) The show started then ended very fast right when the film started the show just ended. Turns out the bike did not want to be a prop it wanted to be a bike. So we saw the actors run off stage during the film. the lights went up and we were told to come back later. After that we walked over to ET. Always fun! Next up was the Simpsons, Wanted to eat but we past and instead i bought some fun Simpson style drinks and apple drink and a flaming moe drink. YES! We then walked over to Harry Potter and walked around, had some nice lunch at the Leaky Cauldron. i had a sausage dog, chips and some butter beer. my mom had some fish and chips and butter beer. We were still so happy to be there! Nice just walking around and take our time. Later on in the afternoon, found a shop that carries various universal stuff from mini posters. i found and picked up a Bates Motel Bath Robe. So worth it! We did some shopping around the main store, looked in the windows. It was time go back to the hotel in Disney. Around 630 we got back to the hotel, tired but happy we had a great day.

Tuesday November 17 Magic Kingdom Morning and Night! We started out the day having breakfast at the BE OUR GUEST Restaurant. It was so nice! My mom had some breakfast meats and some fruit, I had a donut with lots of fruit and we both had breakfast croissants. It felt like Christmas because it was "snowing" outside and the Christmas tree was up and it was such a happy time! Did a ride or two and went back to the hotel around 1-2pm. Went to the pool for an hour or so. My mom took a nap. I hung out in the food court and gift shop. Around 6pm I was having dinner and I saw a police man and hotel employees with a member of management told me and other guests to please leave and get behind the fantasia pool to go back to your rooms. So on my way back i called back to the room told my mom what was going on and to stay. Moments later I am back in the room, I told her what happened so she tried to call the front desk - no answer. We had tickets for Mickey's Christmas Party at the magic kingdom. So we saw police cars outside the hotel and guests going back to their rooms and everyone asking what was going on because people who were swimming were told to get out and go to another hotel to swim. So all activity was being moved to Music hotel. Later on we heard it was a really rude guest....but the next day we heard it was a bomb threat...well no one will know. So we ended up getting to the magic kingdom around 630pm it was packed but it was beautiful to see the castle all decked out with Christmas lights. We did our best to walk around part of the park, we did Peter Pan's flight and that is such a nice ride! never get to do it because of the line in the day it was 75 min long! We walked around the park getting hot coco and cookies (they were not so good! but the coco was good!) Back in tomorrow land we did our favorite ride the people mover! saw space mountain with the lights on it was under construction (they will revamp it and call it hyper space mountain based off of star wars) We found our way in front of the magic kingdom and took some photos and watched the castle change colors then the fireworks started and how amazing were they? beautiful going over the castle with the christmas music and it was just magical. i filmed the entire show. magical tears were flowing but happy ones! it was a great end to a wonderful day and night!

Wednesday November 18 Disney Springs aka Relax Day. It was a nice day, we had lunch at earl of sandwich, we shopped for awhile. i did not buy anything but mom bought a Christmas Yoda. We went to go see Love the Coopers which was a Christmas film. It got a lot of bad reviews, but we enjoyed it for what it was. Its a film about a family that is not perfect and each family member has their own issues pryer to Christmas Eve/Day and then the family gets together. We went back to the hotel and relaxed and went to the pool for the rest of the afternoon.

THURSDAY NOVEMBER 19 Disney Hollywood Studios or MGM Studios Osborne Family Lights
Spent the morning at the hotel, had a nice breakfast, mom went to the pool, i relaxed in the room for awhile then i went into the pool. we did our wash. later on in the afternoon we went to MGM studios for the night. It was so special to see the theater back to the way it was without any big mouse hat in the way! The great movie ride changed a bit. Still love it but its now an add for TCM. Robert Osborne now hosts the pre show of the ride and also narrates the ride while giving some facts about each film. The final movie has also changed which is fine. Still the same to a point.
After the GMR we went to Star Tours! Boy, it was fun! They added a new scene!!!

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When I saw it i had the biggest smile on my face and i was even crying! i kept on saying this is new!! this is new!! it was so much fun!!! Next up was the final Osborne Family Lights Spectacular. So beautiful each and every time!!! The lights, the fake snow, the hot coco. the Christmas music to get you into the spirit of things. So nice!!! My mom and I and such a fun fun time! We called it a night a bit after 8pm then we went back to the hotel and went to bed for the day of travel back home.

12th November 2015

7:52am: I have not posted in awhile. Not much going on from middle of Oct-Present. Just work. Still looking for some other jobs. I did see 3 movies over the last month or so.
First Up was Spielberg's
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The day I saw the film i was kind of tired. So I had to get some food. But i thought the film was good. The film did well with Production Design! Good story and good history!

Next Up was a Double Feature. I love this poster! I would like to get this poster because its sweet and I need to dream again!
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Now this film was so sweet! It was kind, it taught to be your self. Dream Big. Did the show/specials justice. Cried a bit...yes if you sat next to me at the end you would see me wipe tears from my eyes. but happy ones.

The final film I saw was
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I chose the teaser poster because I thought it was better then the normal posters. What did i think of the film? The sound mix was great and loud! I felt like I saw this film before aka past bond films. But the action was fun and good. Come back and ask me more. I am still thinking about this film.

16th October 2015

7:33am: Walking on air...on a wire
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Saw THE WALK. Really good movie. It had amazing special effects, a great story. Wow!

15th October 2015

7:57am: I have not wrote anything for almost over a month because its just been a tough month or so. Work has gotten me very depressed. Doing the same thing over and over again.

I had a sleep study done

Applying to jobs (few jobs but jobs)

Working lots

18th August 2015

7:09am: What would You Do?
I will start this by asking what would you do if you were in my shoes?

Last night I had to return some items to the front of the store. on my way one of the many managers told me when i return i should "zone" my section super good because the big guys will be coming tomorrow. I said okay so you want everything to be almost falling off the shelf she said yes. On my way back to hardware another manager asked what i was doing while walking back to hardware i said zoning. He said no your not your walking, if your not going to zone, go get freight in the back and start stocking. He then said if i walked by and saw you zoning i would just say hello and be on my way...so i went to the back, i get my hardware, i then am on my way out walking back to my dept. i see the same manager, i told her i was told to get freight and start stocking, she said who said that...i gave the name...she said okay....awhile later back in hardware my self and the other person who i work with were about to start stocking shelves, then both managers walk over and the one who told me to start stocking he came up to me super close and said in a very rude (to the point where it was bullying and felt like it was almost abusive) "Sean, what did i tell you to do?" Why did you lie to my face? Why did you tell stories that were not true?" At this time i was latterly shaking inside? So he standing in front 2 other workers did not want to even hear me out. he said did i say this? am i correct? At this point the other workers were in shock. So he walked off. the other manager said just zone, don't bother doing this. So we start to zone, at this point i am scared to death, i could feel the butterflies flitter around inside my body. I am in shock and super quiet. So we both zone. i asked the other person if she had ever seen a manger talk to an employee like that before? she said no. An hour passes. The manager who yelled at me told me he wanted to talk to me...i was already before this still shocked and in fear, and to walk and be my self with this manager i felt (inside) unsafe and scared. We walked outside, he sat me down asked me how long i have worked here, do you like working here? am i happy here? then telling me he always liked me as a person, some other people say you should do more but i look past that, don't i always say your doing a good job? Then he said sean, why did you make me look like a lier and tell a story that was not true, and make me look bad? do you know how that makes me feel? So I tell him my side of the story. He said, i walked by hardware 3 times and all i see you is standing around or walking around doing nothing, when your here and not have anything to do you zone. He said is there anything you want to tell me? Then he said thank you and said zone, and if there is anything he could do just ask, shook my hand and walked away. All my answers were yes, no. So this time HE made it out like I lied. Did i feel safe with him by my self during all that? No. Did I feel threatened in any way? Yes.I know everything he told me was fake and a lie. He could care less about me.I felt scared for the rest of my night.

Would you call this the last straw? Will I feel the same way as I did last night but going back in 2 days from now? Yes.

12th August 2015

12:31pm: Count My Blessings
1 WONDERFUL MOM
2 LUCKY TO BE ALIVE
3 GOOD HEALTH
4 HOME
5 WONDERFUL PETS
6 GOOD FRIENDS
7 WONDERFUL FAMILY
8 ABLE TO DO MORE THEN MOST
9 CLOTHES
10 FOOD
11 BUDGET MONEY
12 (LUCKY TO) ACHIVE ONE OF MY DREAMS
13 TRAVEL
14 GO BACK TO COLLEGE
15 FINSH COLLEGE AND GET AN ASSOCIATE DEGREE
16 GOOD CHECKING AND SAVINGS
17 GOOD CAR
18 HEALTH AND DENTAL INSURANCE
19 HAVE A JOB
20 KNOWLEDGE ABOUT COMPUTERS
21 OVERCOME LEARNING DISABILITIES
22 EYE SURGERY(FROM WEARING GLASSES FOR 20+ YRS)
23 TAKING COLLEGE LEVEL MATH (AND PASSING)
24 ENJOY SPECIAL MOMENTS IN LIFE THAT PEOPLE TAKE FOR GRANTED
25 ESCAPE LIFE JUST WATCHING A MOVIE
26 USE MY IMAGINATION
27 LOVE OLD TIME RADIO SHOWS
28 NOT AFRAID TO CRY DURING HAPPY/SAD MOMENTS IN LIFE
29 EXPERIENCE THE WORLD FROM MY MOM'S POINT OF VIEW
30 LET MY MOM EXPERIENCE THE WORLD FROM MY POINT OF VIEW WHEN SOMETHING SPECIAL HAPPENS
31 STILL FRIENDS WITH MY CHILDHOOD FRIEND JASON
32 DOING SELFLESS GOOD DEEDS FOR FRIENDS AND SOMETIMES STRANGERS
33 ABLE TO TRY TO SEE THE POSITIVE FROM A NEGATIVE
34 KEEP A JOURNAL
35 THANKFUL FOR SPENDING MY LAST YR IN COLLEGE WITH MY FRIEND,LISA. (WHO IMPACTED MY LIFE)
36 THANKFUL FOR BEING WELCOMED BY FILM CREW MEMBERS (AND BEING FRIENDS WITH THEM AKA BEST FILM FAMILY I KNOW!) ON ANY MOVIE SET AND PUTTING ME TO WORK (WITH THE PAYMENT OF FOOD - SOME DAY I'LL GET MONEY OUT OF IT!)
37 KNOW HOW TO EDIT
38 GRATEFUL TO HAVE A DAD
39 LEARNING NEW THINGS
40 ABLE TO SEE AND HERE, HAVE ARMS AND LEGS
41 STILL FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE I WENT TO HIGH SCHOOL WITH
42 HAPPY I'VE KISSED A GIRL (ONLY 3 IN MY LIFE..SO FAR..I HOPE MORE-I AM GETTING OLDER! I MIGHT BE FINE WINE I GET BETTER WITH AGE?!)
43 TRY TO HAVE A SENCE OF HUMMOR ABOUT LIFE
44 BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE



REFLECT ON LIFE AND HOW BLESSED I AM
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