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15th February 2017

8:18am: depression hits again
Over the last 2 days Feb 13-14th i have had anxiety it just feels like its everything going on. I know that work sure does give me that for many reasons such as
-the constant music they play (over and over and the same songs for the last almost 3 yrs)
-songs about summer time (what month is it?)
-seeing really really over weight people
-my job in general.

It was to the point where on the 13th i had to go in the back and sit down for a bit and try to calm down.
Depression has also sunk in by the way once again aka sean has the blues!
When i came back out and i was doing my job i felt like i was going to cry.

Happy Valentines Day by the way.

I gave my mom some red roses and a small bag of candy. She gave me a cute mickey mouse card and $20 for fun money to spend it on but i did not find anything fun.

Yesterday was also tough. Sure i wished everyone a happy valentines day and i told people to treat them selves to something special. but you know what? i just did not and still do not feel special. I was happy on the outside (to a point) and sad in the inside. i could feel it. Also they music was bothering me and just i felt really bothered and upset. i was all tense inside, i felt like my blood pressure was also going up. I also at one point wanted to cry again. Also they had me running all over one side of the store doing 3 depts. jobs. aka returns and onto of that i had work that i had to do.

I then come home, tired and still upset. I go onto Facebook and i found my old friend kelly has a boyfriend. that made me sad. why does it make me sad? I guess its because 20 years ago i had met her and she was the first girl i had loved in my life. As you kind of know it she loved me but not the same way as i loved her. it was kind of a one way love. Not going into our story. But she looked happy in her photos with her boyfriend. Better to love and loss then ever loved at all. It just made me think that i am still single. people say if you want a nice girl go look for one. your not in my shoes for one. seems like the only girls i talk to are the ones at work and i do not want to go out with anyone at work...and most of them go out with each other anyways.

So anxiety and depression all around. I called into work...taking a mental health day off. I hope i feel better about me and my life. because right now i dislike me.

9th February 2017

9:18am: Work is going alright. getting very board of it...want something better. Anyways onto better things

I have watched more movies lately. All of them are up for an Oscar or some award. Not really into watching tv shows lately. Speaking of tv shows the only 2 shows i want to watch now would be 24 Legacy = it just started but i will wait till the season is over because that is the only way to watch a show like that. And in 2 weeks the final season of bates motel starts. Looking forward to that. A Psycho mini series

We went down to Myrtle Beach on Monday. The weather was nice. Bought some snow pants and some gloves. Doug and friends are going to west Virginia in less then 2 weeks for some time in the snow and i am going. have to have these mini trips and something to look forward to so work life can not be so dull all the time. Got to come up with something for the month of March....

Now don't get me wrong, i still love my disney infinity i think that game did something really positive on me. but around 2015 when the force awakens came out EA came out with a new up to date version of battlefront and since then i have had my eye on it. aka watching youtube videos stuff like that. i even pointed out that i was even thinking of getting a PS4 to buy that game to play a few times. Anyways, a few weeks ago i came across the first xbox system at habbitat for $20 i had one but it broke. so i bought it and just last week i went on amazon and picked up the first 2 battlefront games for xbox to play them. Its once again - enjoy what you do have. So i am a proud owner of battlefront 1 and 2.

21st January 2017

8:15am: Time sure does fly! I was looking at the calendar to see what I have done for the last 2 weeks. I have worked a lot. It seems to be getting better. I heard a comment from someone (not knowing who it was) said that i am one of the most hardest working employees in the store. Very nice to hear. I have looked for jobs but not as much. Just dabble in it still.

The days off i have had I have watched a lot of movies. Such as

All were rather good.

Today is my day off. Going to relax. I got the Soundtrack to "Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them" on beautiful green and blue vinyl record. Used some of my amazon gift card for that.

6th January 2017

7:59am: Good morning to everyone. My little vacation is going well. it sure is a quiet one.

Tuesday Jan 3 was a day at home. Kind of catch up relax day from the day before. I had time to open up the PS3 headphones and put them to use. They sound great. i used them on a few games. The sound does sound like its coming from all angles.
I took photos of my gifts. I opened up all my infinity figures and put them into a case. I also listened to some radio shows. It was a nice day.

Wednesday Jan 4 was another day at home but this time it was by my self. My mom went out for the day. Nice to spend some time to your self. I played some video games. Did some projects. watched some movies.

Thursday Jan 5 I took a nap in my chair, we did book a birthday trip to Disney in May for my mom! So yippee! We are going to disney! Also found out U2 might start putting out dates for the new tour this month.

Friday Jan 6-who knows what today will bring

2nd January 2017

9:20am: my 36th Birthday
Today is a new year for me. Today I enter my 36th year on this earth.
I know its going to be a great day today!

It began on Sunday, went to go see Rouge One, once again. Second viewing I thought the second half of the film was better then the first half. aka the setting up the story. That kind of took long the second time around. But when we see Darth the story really gets kicking into high gear!

But i had a really nice birthday! Birthday gifts (some I had bought before Christmas but i gave them to my mom to save and she chose to give them to me today) were given out after breakfast
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31st December 2016

3:44pm: Looking back in 2016
January 2016 began well because I had my birthday and it was a very nice time.
I also took time to start a new resultion each month. It began by putting things in order. But the month ended on a very tragic note. my friend Corey past away. He had gotten into an accident. Life is short. Enjoy every moment!

February was a new goal to learn something new and it was Film and Philosophy. The Wilmington filmed The Choice came out. Also. It was shelved since 2014.
Also looking for jobs, redoing my resume. Looking everywhere i could think of (online)

March came a pay raise at work so it brought my pay up to $10 an hour. I know thats not much. but it has helped me in the long run. I was also trying to enjoy things i do have. i even ordered some new old radio shows such as collection of Dragnet and Suspense. Saw Zootopia which was nice. I also saw Batman Vs Superman on Easter - not a great movie to see on Easter sunday but hey.

April came spring and family into town. My mom and i drove down to SC to visit family. It was a nice day but rather windy from what i can remember. I think I was working very much because i do not remember much about that month. Other then that.

May brought May Flowers and my moms may the 4th Birthday in Disney World. We had a wonderful time this trip. I really needed a good break and mom had a wonderful birthday. That was the highlight of the entire month.

June was the start of some personal issues that i would have and i am still dealing with to this day. Work was already getting to me. Not able to do anything, nor see any friends. Upset most of the time. I was still looking for jobs and getting nowhere with it. I was able to go see some movies during the month so that made me happy.

July was a rough month. The start of the month was okay by having a few days off. But work really did get to me. By the end of the month I was really upset about my self, my life, about my job, about not able to find a job. the stress of the current job that i have. My moods were changing day by day. One thing i always kept in mind was A few months ago I and posted I would do a new resolution each month. I have so far done 7 of them. This month the 7th month it was not to not spend much money aka no credit card. Well I reached that goal. Next months resolution(s) will be
-No junk food for the month (no cookies)
-Try to continue my movie server project (I just started once more (since 2014) that once again to finish up my Blu Ray movies)
-Start to watch a tv show I never viewed before that I have the complete series of since 2008

August of this year was again another really awful month. The stress of my job was and still is killing me, day by day. It was also the month were I had a bit of a melt down. (still do from time to time) I went to my doctor. The good news is I did use a paycheck to buy a 16tb hard drive for my movies/tv shows. And I worked on my server project for the month. And I was still looking for a job and still nothing. I was and still am very upset about my self. i am not really creative as I use to be. I do not take any trips. Just i felt and i still feel the world is coming down on me. And i felt awful because of the guy who i have become in life. in other words something snapped inside.

Sept was kind of a nice month. I had a check up at the doctor which went well. My mom went to go visit her sister for a week. i had some time to my self. I also had found a game i had wanted since 2014 which was Alien Isolation. I even put some time in at work for time off during the next month because I really did need some time off. people were really concerned about me. I was even thinking about getting a new game system but did the math and it costed too much money. So instead I bought into the Disney Infinity game since the company stopped production everything would be cheap. So thats what I did. It was something fun to spend my money on and I was really enjoying it. I was happy, first time in awhile.

October was a nice month for me. The winds of change. I was on vacation first time since May! I was still playing and enjoying Disney infinity. I also discovered some old Disney horror films from the 80s. Enjoying being off and enjoying old radio shows again. It felt so good to be off and relaxing. Went down to SC for the day to get away and enjoy our selves. i also picked up via PS3 The Last of Us. A really good video game I am glad i talked my self into buying! i beat it in a week.

November The start of the month was nice. i picked up some goodies at a church sale for cheap. Also spent time with my friend Doug. The world voted (for the wrong person) sad to say and won. Shocking! I was still working but more crazy since the holidays were going on. My mom and I had our own thanksgiving by going to go view the Fantasic Beasts film then the next day have a nice small turkey breast and just being thankful for each other. I was also doing Christmas shopping during that time.

December the final month of the year. I am getting more respect at work from people. meaning they see me and they appreciate me and the work that I do. They take good care of me. I was even asked to be put on full time. But I had to pass because of my health insurance. I would pay more going thru my work then i would be paying right now. Doug and I and friends went to the TSO concert in Greensboro that was fun but a long 23 hour trip. Its also another month for a new Star Wars film. i loved it. And another Christmas. I bought my mom some TCM wine - Orson welles, Hitchcock and Frankenstein Wine. Also an Adele CD/DVD combo, a DVD of a show she enjoys. An electric throw blanket and some soaps from a store in downtown Disney. Wow Christmas was last Sunday! Christmas was nice spending it at home with mom and the pets. As this year comes to a close and another year begins. Much heartbreak happened this year. it was a stressful year in more ways then one. Lets hope 2017 is a better year then this year.
So Happy 2017 to everyone!

26th December 2016

6:23am: Merry Christmas!
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas with family. Hope "santa" left you some nice things for your self and for your kids. This is what santa left me. I did not take a photo of my new clothes. I have to take a photo of what my mom got from santa.

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21st December 2016

7:22am: Happy 4 days till Christmas!!

All I can say is they are working me to my death at work. I had monday and tuesday off this week. I have to say it was so good to be off of work after working 6 days in a row. All the things people take for granted being home to eat dinner, spending time with family (mom and the pets) stuff like that. I go BACK to work today for the next 4 days- even work Christmas Eve (like thousands of other people) Anyways enough about that place.

On friday we went to go see
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I thought it was a good movie. kind of dark. its almost like a thinking movie. i like it but i don't. not use to it. i guess that means i have to see it again! oh a funny story my popcorn and soda cost more then the film tickets. cost $28 for the popcorn and soda

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it was worth it. i was having fun. May the force be with you!

13th December 2016

8:01am: I have not posted since the week of thanksgiving! Wow~! Time flies! A quick recap my thanksgiving was kind of nice. My mom and i had a turkey dinner on Tuesday. That was just so special. I had to work on thanksgiving as did many other people. I was out by 730 that night. it sure was crazy! Skipping to this month my gifts came for my mom for Christmas. Some wine from the TCM Wine Club and also some nice soap from this place in Disney World that we enjoy going to.

Work wise its gone fine. I might have said i am getting more respect there and people are finally seeing me as a hard worker someone who they can depend on. i was even offered full time. As of now I had to turn it down because of my health insurance rate. i would be paying more if i get it thru work then what i am getting now (price wise)

Moving on Doug, my self and other friends and I once again went to go see last night the Trans-Siberian concert last night. It was a long journey! Began at Sunday 530am picked up. Then we drove to pick up the other people. We got to Greensboro after noon and had a nice lunch. Went to the concert the show started at 3 did not end till 5. I thought the show was nice. Same view/same seats (side front row) It was loud. It was christmas/ classical music mixed with a story. Then they also played a mix of their own "best of hits" After the show we drove to have some dinner. It took a long time. We left the restrant around 8ish and i did not get home till 230am this morning. So I was up for almost 24 hours with friends. It was a nice mini road trip. with good people. i slept most of the morning. A lazy day.

22nd November 2016

8:30am: Fantastic!
Last night was so fun. We went to go see
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It was such a fun and fantastic film! It had the feeling of the HP series! And it had some new magic in it. From what I could tell (not movie wise) that its a one off book, but its also a semi book series from other books from Hogwarts that may be like this book/film. Now the thing I do not understand is how they can stretch this out for 5 films. First it was 3 now 5. But a great film a fun 4 star film for the holidays!

8th November 2016

11:26am: History today!
It was nice to get out to vote this morning. This is history today!

6th November 2016

8:19am: The other day was nice. Went up to wilmington. I returned a tree I had bought for mom. She made a choice not to keep it. the tree was way too much money anyways. so instead bought some items for the porch for the holiday.

Later in the day I picked up a few movies i had not seen before
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Looking forward to viewing these! Later that night Doug and I went to go view

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I thought it was different. Fun. The special effects were good. Thats about all I have to say about it.

And yesterday went to a market and picked up a 100 pack of blank cd's free
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and my mom also picked up for free was
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And for a dollar each were these
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I also took a nice afternoon quick nap in my chair and that was a bonus! Did some projects around the house. Had a nice dinner then had a double feature
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I have to say viewing these back to back was kind of neat. the 76 version was kind of nice because how you were introduced to the people in the film with a voice over. You got a good intro. The story was sweet but also dated now. Turning to the 03 remake. I had gotten this film yrs ago on vhs. I really liked it back then. The plot is almost the same but with differences with the times we live in. I kind of feel with the time we live in now the "family lesson" is more present in the remake. Both films hold up in the own ways plot wise. the better film of the two would be the remake then the 76 version.

3rd November 2016

7:54am: I have had off the last few days. Halloween 2016 was a nice one. I played THE LAST OF US and also downloaded the DLC on ps3.
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Kind of a creepy game. Later that night went next door for some pizza and then it was time to come back home to give out candy to the kids. We had the front of the house all decked out with lights, strobe lights, fog, halloween music, a skeleton bride and groom on the wall. It was nice but the only thing is no matter how much candy you buy to give out it goes by so fast! We closed up at 740pm!

The next day I was back on the PS3 playing the game again. But i also went to the shed to clean it up and put some order to it halloween stuff, christmas stuff, yd sale stuff that kind of thing. I gave bono a walk around the block he was so happy. its getting harder to watch him come up stairs at night. he even moans when he can not do it, so we have to cheer him on.

Yesterday was kind of a nice day but kind of a lazy day more then anything. nothing really went on at all. tried out some games to play. looked online for some things. had a nice dinner though so that was nice. sent some e-mails to some friends. oh i did watch a movie last night It was THE ODD LIFE OF TIMOTHY GREEM.
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A Disney movie. It was a nice film, kind of the old fashion heartwarming type of films they use to come out with. (Its for kids but the film was more adult themes to the story)
And you guessed it - I cried at the end of the film.

22nd October 2016

6:12pm: A nice quick note
The other day my mom went to the eye doctor and while she was there the eye doctor and all of the nurses told my mom that in the few years they have all known me, that love to see how nice i have turned out to become a wonderful kind adult. When my mom told me that (its not the first time she has gotten told that) I thanked her because its how she raised me is how I have become. I just wanted to say i love and admire my mom very much. she is a wonderful mom.

21st October 2016

3:06pm: The rest of my vacation
Monday Oct 17

It was a relaxing day for me. The theme of the day was video games. I picked up an old game of mine that I had bought in 2014 it was Aliens. It was a game that came out in 2013 and it was a bomb. A first person shooter in the Alines world. A sequel after aliens. I had first played the game and could NOT for the life of me not pass the first level and I did it. i past the first level and onto I think the fourth level. I now can not pass that one. I was also playing the Disney infinity game during the day.

Every year around this time i tend to get back into really enjoying and loving old time radio shows again. Around this time I go for the horror stories because of Halloween. These sets have been out for the last 2 or 3 years. And I wanted to get them on radio spirits but i past because how expense they were. ($33 and up) I found them on iTunes for $20 each.

I am still listening to the first set of
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I also picked up a second set of
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I am really happy and enjoying these radio shows. Sometimes they even woke me up at night because they scared me so much.

Tuesday Oct 18th

My mom and I went out we went down to Myrtle Beach SC for the day. We first hit up Crispy Cream Donuts. Got some hot donuts and some halloween ones. We then drove down to the outlet mall for the day. I went into the Disney store and it was kind of nice to be down there. But nothing caught my eye. We then had some lunch at 4 guys burgers. They have such great burgers. The time was past 1pm and we left the outlet and I had to stop into Toys R Us because they had Infinity figures for $4.99 each. I found the 2 that I wanted. They did not have Mickey Mouse but they did have Minnie Mouse and Donald Duck! We got home later around 5. I wanted to try the figures out and both are so cute! Donald has a cute waddle when he walks and Minnie is just so cute. I was also trying out some of the toy boxes i had downloaded the other day and that night it was a duel between Darth Vader vs Minnie Mouse and Minnie won! Cute!

Wednesday Oct 19
Just was a relaxing day. Played some video games and watched some movies.

Thursday Oct 20
My order from amazon came in and its hung up on the wall. some nice vinyl art. Once again I watched some tv shows, American Horror Story and a Hammer House of Horror's.
Went to bed early because I was just kind of tired of watching tv and i had old radio shows to listen to.

Friday Oct 21
My second order came in (new shoes) and I also downloaded some other horror radio shows. The first one i really always loved the cover because its just so classic.
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The second is an album of short stories and runs around an hour long. Its an album meant to be listened to with the lights off and headphones on.
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Going to watch a movie and maybe hang out with someone for a meal tonight. unsure. but its my last day. i have to say i have really enjoyed having a vacation at home.

17th October 2016

10:51am: Saturday the first day of my vacation - Lets calm down

Woke up early and went to yd sales. Nothing really that great. 4 hours later we came back home. I was very tired because I had a bad sleep. I was up for a few hours and could not go back to bed till around 5am. So I put something on and fell asleep in my chair for a good hour or so. Then I woke up and had some lunch. Watched some Disney Horror films. yes Disney put out some suspense and horror ghost films back in the 80s.
Both were really not that bad.

First up was

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i have to say this was a really good film. I know it seems like i say that a lot about movies. It was kind of slow when the film started but it goes along and gets better. Almost like a slow burner. This is Disney, it deals with death, the devil, heads being cut off. kids fears. It was super good though. This was during Disney's dark period in the early 80s.

The next film I watched in the preview had a warning to parents (again Disney's Dark period)
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"As Proud as we are for The Watcher In The Woods, Walt Disney Productions strongly recommends the parents pre-screen the picture for pre-teens. It's Not intended for small Children!"

I had to watch it. It was okay suspense film. But i will give it one thing the film stuck with me. made me think and wanted me to come back to watch it again...So i guess that means it was a good movie. haunting movie. the film score was dark and eery. I would buy both films if i saw them at a good price.

This is part of my countdown to halloween. I have a few more dark disney films to watch. i had to re order a device for my computer because the one i have is now broken but it lasted 6 or 7 yrs so it did well.

Sunday = Relax Day
It was be a bum day. Watched some more horror films and relax. just enjoying my time off. Getting into (horror) old radio shows once again. Which is a good thing.
I also bought for the PS3 an add on to Alien Isolation and i have had fun playing the last mission from Alien. Its scary but fun.

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And downloaded a few new toy boxes for Disney infinity.

14th October 2016

5:05pm: a break!
on vacation!!!

28th September 2016

3:54pm: Almost a month
Well, I am not dead, so thats a good thing. Last time i updated i wrote about my doctor apt and how i felt about the meds and various awful thoughts i had to my self.
This month has been very busy. Work wise the environment has not really improved. Its a very demanding place.

On to the topic of the follow up doctor apt. it went well. He will keep me on these meds for a few more months. I feel they have done me good so far. i also went to the eye doctor for a yearly check up. The vision is about the same as last year, I have to get some reading glasses. But other then that as she put it i am holding my own. So that was nice.

My mom also went up state NY to go visit her sister (my aunt) for a few days and she had a very nice time spending time with her and other family moments. I could not come because I was taking care of the pets and I had to work. but that was okay.

A few weeks ago I picked up Alien Isolation for PS3 for $6 new but it was on clearance. I have really enjoyed the video game and still playing it and still screaming! I also had a yearling to play Star Wars Battlefront on PS4. I have as PS3 so I looked into it and the PS4 costs $300+ the game costs $20 + if i wanted to buy the expansion pack it would cost $50 more. To play one game it would cost almost $400 to play. Not worth it. So I thought about looking into Disney Infinity and I know the game is finished producing new content and the game is going for cheap so i ended up picking up for $20 the starter pack + 2 other star wars play sets for $20 so in all I got the game everything for $40 and I love it! its such a fun game! And for spending that much money on it was not a had choice. Even my mom was happy for me to find something fun and to spend some of my money because I really do not spend a lot of my money i work for.

Next month is October and I am taking a vacation, also having a yard sale and halloween is also next month! And I have started to view horror films since the start of this month so I am way ahead of the game!

20th August 2016

6:55pm: a small update
got my pills for my blood pressure and my "mood". a review so far
the blood pressure i think has gone down a bit since i have taken it - which is i guess a good thing.?
and my other pills well i have only taken one so far and i looked at the side effects of them and one of them would be not able to sleep well i was up at 1am for a bit this morning and i took the pill yesterday. that was one of the many side effects.
how was i today? well i felt my blood pressure go up a little bit but it was trying to stay down...still a bad score...and the mood well i sure was pissed off today. and saying to my self i hate this fucking place. i gotta get out. i was also very quiet today. this place is fucking me up big time! not sure if i am letting it fuck with me or there are way too many people in charge and they all say the same shit or different shit? once i said to my self today going to kill my self. i am sick of this shit. but as you can read i have not. but i work in a very unhealthy environment that is damaging me day by day. i do not have a (social) life, i have aged quickly in 2.5 yrs, my health is so so, (as you can read) i have joint pains aka Arthritis. i don't go out and do much of anything after work, my mind always thinks of work. i am not as creative as i use to be. i dislike people these days. i want to try to take some time off but you know they will not let you take off a total of almost 4 months of the yr and not the prime times aka the holidays. i just don't understand how one job can do this to one person? its awful. i dislike who i have become.

19th August 2016

5:59pm: an update
Well, i have an update. my server project is going well. i am now trying to import my cd collection into the computer then put it to an external hard drive. So thats going well. work is just so very very stressful these past few weeks. so last week i checked my blood pressure and it was awfully high. this job is KILLING ME. I went to the doctor today to check and tell him whats gone on. He gave me some meds for my blood pressure and also i told him how my mood changes and how when i am in the store i feel my blood pressure start from my legs up to my head...well it turns out i have anxiety and depression onto of high blood pressure. i asked him that I felt like i was much more healthy 2+ yrs ago before i started work, he said i was much healthy back then. I told him that i do not do much anymore. i am just depressed most of the time and just scared about my future. he shook my hand and told me he wants to see me back in a month and hope that i start to feel better and find a better job.

i am just so burned out and want a break

27th July 2016

2:15pm: New Years Resoultion(s)
A few months ago I and posted I would do a new resolution each month. I have so far done 7 of them. This month the 7th month it was not to not spend much money aka no credit card. Well I reached that goal. Next months resolution(s) will be
-No junk food for the month (no cookies)
-Try to continue my movie server project (I just started once more (since 2014) that once again to finish up my Blu Ray movies)
-Start to watch a tv show I never viewed before that I have the complete series of since 2008

23rd July 2016

6:24pm: A moody morning but a nice afternoon.
Today is my day off and have i enjoyed it? Yes, I can say i have. Was I enjoying it this morning? ah kind of-somewhat-not really. I was in one of "my moods" where I feel let down by my self and by the world. Meaning i hold a pity party, saying i do not have many friends to hang out with anymore, i have an awful job. stuff like that. not liking where i live and wanting to get out and move. feeling trapped more like it. And we (my mom and i were out for a longtime and i get burned out fast by going to yd sales. Moving on.....

Yd sales began with sun showers in the morning. Nothing too great but I found a NY GIANTS Coat for $35...just checked online retail its $140.
Went to a few others. I did not find anything but my mom found some things. Way after 10am we went to the store and picked up some food, found some goodies. Then we went to the pound to check out the adopt pets weekend. There were some cute dogs there and they were all happy to see us. But none of them picked us. So we came home...its now around 2pm. I watched SUPER 8. Wanted to watch that film for awhile. A nice film to escape life by and remember the times of the 80s...later tonight i am going to grab some pizza and bring it over to someones house as a surprise. I can't seem to spend money on my self aka nothing i truly want to can't live without so do something nice for someone else. Since we got home Bono and shelly have not left my side. they have wanted to be near me every second. cute. i love them so much. my best friends!

22nd July 2016

7:26am: I think the last time i wrote here was during the 4th of july week. not much to catch up on all i have done is work most nights. i do not DO ANYTHING anymore which is sad. What i mean by DO is GO ANYWHERE. No place to really go to and do something. other then going YD Sales on saturday. I just stay at home because theres nothing to do. Sad. i did go see GHOSTBUSTERS. Alight film. it was not needed. Trying to enjoy star trek again and get into that mode for the new film. Which is kind of tough. I was thinking about GOING TO (yes me doing something!) to a star trek convention in NYC in Sept. But it would take (hotel, air fair, ticket(s) to convention) almost $1500 just to walk in the door. I just do not think its worth it and i am more of a casual fan then anything, not a hardcore fan. I am enjoying what i have and try not to spend any money that i do not need to spend because there is nothing i really NEED out there its more WANTS. I just finished playing the GHOSTBUSTERS game for PS3 and it was an alright game. Took awhile to get thru it (a week) but to me that was THE TRUE GHOSTBUSTERS 3. And at the end of the game They talk about having a FRANCHISE so maybe GHOST 16 can mold into that. I just wanted to give an update. I sure do wish i could have a better job somewhere and DO things.

7th July 2016

7:06pm: an end of a nice 4 days off mini vacation
Granted i was (still am) a little sick during the entire time. i think that had to deal with the stress of the holiday and even the stress i get from work. but in all this was a super break.

monday the 4th of july i relaxed in the pool as you know

tuesday the 5th i just enjoyed my time home

wednesday the 6th i was starting to feel kind of super sick and bono stayed with me all day and we watched Jaws 2 and Jaws 3

thursday the 7th my mom and i went out to wilmington to do some shopping at Costco bought a lot of healthy things. went to target. wanted to buy something but i did not find anything that i really liked. and if you go to yd sales you learn to not pay full price for things anymore. and tonight were going to watch a movie. then back to the grind in the morning depending how well i feel.

5th July 2016

3:01pm: a nice break
After work on the 3rd i went to a cookout to visit my good old high school friends - Danny, Si, Justin and Chris. Everyone has wives and have kids. it was so nice to spend time with everyone.

So yesterday was the 4th and i was off. it was a very nice day. it did not even feel like a big holiday. my mom slept late. later on during the afternoon i went down to the town to see what was going on. it was semi packed but not really. met up with jeff and his mom and their family. walked around for awhile. mindless chitchat. then i found my exit.

When i got home i had fun, i jumped into my suite and into the pool and sat outside in the heat with the hose on. Later on i cooked us (mom and i) dinner burgers and hotdogs.
At this point i was not feeling well. my body was just super tired and even semi sick.
So i took bono upstairs to take care of him before and during the fireworks. i then slipped into a coma for the night...

Today, my second day off has been nice,. woke up had some good breakfast. gave bono a walk. had lunch later on watching a disney cartoon. haha. then around noonish i went to finish my movie trilogy of the Before Trilogy - Before Sunrise, Before Sunset and Before Sunrise. A Very good trilogy. its almost like pen pal letters.
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